Hmmm...I suppose after over a year of silence it's time to update.  I moved. Again. It's lonely here, and I don't fit in. I'm not sure I want to, but I have to believe that God has me here for a reason. Even though I feel like I am on a desert island, I know that it is not true. There's not much point in reiterating what happended to get me to this point, lots of disasters, nothing good. I need an outlet, a place to vent my feeling safely and for now this is it. Not much is going on right now. I had a job interview today and I am supposed to have one or two more this week. We'll see how that goes....

Watching backwards as life like pictures
Stinging thoughts, born with phantoms
We danced above a world forgotten
Moments cherished... even now
A train-wrecked heart loves fairy tales
Singing from a gaping wound
However time has left unsettled
My memories play out of tune

You can't unmake
a cold mistake
You can't undo
the hearts you break
You can't erase
the poet's fate
Not even if you try

And she had Audrey Hepburn's smile
With deeper sadder eyes
The only thing she said
No one hears Cassandra cry
Because the earth is standing still
And the truth becomes a lie
A choice profound is bittersweet
No one hears Cassandra cry

A heartfelt sorrow I believe
Offered this for passion's crime
A crippled satellite trapped in orbit
My memories play out of time

You can't unmake
a cold mistake
You can't undo
the hearts you break
You can't erase
the poet's fate
Not even if you try...

The listless price of my descension
Where emptiness has pulled me down
Cascading from my divagation
Below the frozen winter skies
Pythonic sadness unreleased
As serpents rigid in cold
Waiting for the warmth of Sunday
Before the cruelty of growing old

Are you listening?
Are you listening?
Are you listening now?
Like Orpheus with hope entangled
Your path was mapped about your feet
Leading backwards into forgiveness
Or forward to a fools retreat

   I found this song on a CruxShadows album given to me by a friend; and it seemed appropriate. There are three Cassandra's in my life right now and all of them desperately need prayer. So I guess that is my prayer right now. That God will hear Cassandra cry. And that He will save her. If you could spare some payers now I'd greatly appreciate it. Thanx. Miss you all....

Currently Reading Waking the Dead: The Glory of a Heart Fully Alive By John Eldredge see related

And I, in absolute bliss

Stand here broken before You

Marked for the conquest, I

Am made greater by deliberate change

Only one thing is eternal....

And though that line should bring me comfort

And speak to me of You

It is with a redundancy, that it crushes me

And brings me to my knees

And I run away again

The needle points North

As I'm on the Highway

Escaping my childish fears

I hear your voice inside my head

Soft and gentle, almost pleading

You call out to my heart, and draw me near

So I stop and I stand and am

Refreshed anew

I feel Your wind upon my face, and marvel

Because I never thought to look for You

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